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Endometriosis and Art


I don't remember how I came across this picture. All I remember is that it is by an artist who is a fellow endo survivor! It's how she sees her endometriosis. On days like today I like to look at this for some strange reason it calms me. Today I have been full of pain. Pain in my lower back -crippling enough to make bending and kneeling unbearable. Pain in my ovaries like thousands of tiny needles stabbing them all at once and pain in my legs like a constant ache that's made me so tired, like walking around all day with lead weights attached to my legs! On days like these when I barely make it through my work let alone get home and in bed before I collapse, this picture makes me calm. Yes the picture depicts pain! An entangled web that attaches itself to all that it touches. The venom in the dragons face as it spits it's web of pain. The darkness of the tree depicting a damaged and dying womb. I also see light from the window brightening the room, I see the calming waves flowing beneath it all and I see the strength in the woman's stance - saying "I will not let this beat me" 
I see this and I know that I am fighting for a reason! I am staying strong for a reason! I endure all this pain for a reason! That reason is life! 
Endometriosis has a huge impact on me but it will not control my life! 
💛Stay calm, stay strong and live your life!💛

Ps new Mac on its way back online tomorrow 😊🎉

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